Suaimhneas: Living Goddess

“I want to live my life in such a way that when I get out of bed in the morning, the devil says, “aw shit, he’s up!”

― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience

Struggled a bit with waking at 4 am today. It kind of felt like maybe I had slept too much, but of course I hadn’t and I pushed through and got up anyway. I did the New York Times puzzles in bed and listened to some more of Prince Harry’s book. His writing is quite nice and I enjoy his description and word choices, but parts of it do feel a little woe is me I’m the black sheep child syndrome. I mean, yes, the royals may be the most famously dysfunctional family, but it can be difficult to show much empathy when he was raised with such great privilege. We’ll see how this progresses.

I took to the living room at 5:30 am with matcha by my side and got ready to do some writing. After yesterday’s rough walk and Pat working last night and being so tired and grumpy all day yesterday, I thought he would likely sleep in and we wouldn’t go walking this morning. I waited for him to text to say he was or wasn’t coming and when he didn’t text I just figured the latter. But right on cue he turned up just before 6 am raring to go.

Our walk today was much better. The roads were snow-packed and crunchy. Unlike yesterday I wasn’t sore at all when I woke this morning. The temperature hovered right around -6 Celsius with no wind. We walked all the way to the end of the road and back to my place, the furthest so far this week. They always say to get a buddy to hold you accountable and push you on the days you don’t want to do anything. Part of me always knew that if I asked Pat to be that buddy there would be no turning back because he would tackle it like everything else he tackles, a dog with a bone, unrelentless until the task is done. I am well aware of what I’ve unleashed upon myself, and I’m ready to rise to the occasion.

As I was falling asleep last night I was listening to the Osbourne’s podcast on YouTube. They were talking about the recent Grammy Awards and Kelly’s absence from the podcast because she was in Nashville with Dolly Parton doing some charity work. She could not say enough about how inspired she was by Dolly and how much she aspired to be more like her. Then she let it slip that Dolly Parton gets up every morning at 3 am to meditate and write for four hours before her workday begins. Three o’clock in the morning! Wow! That got me thinking about Mark Wahlberg’s morning routine that starts between 3:30 and 4 am. This led me down a rabbit hole on Google this morning … it sure does seem like a lot of very successful, very fit and healthy, very well adjusted and happy people start their days super early. I am definitely on to something.

Yesterday, I watched an Abraham video during lunch. Abraham said that if your desire is very great, you can overcome your resistance, it will just be a lot more difficult than if you were lined up and had no resistance. The guest had found the love of her life and was truly happy, but she still seemed to want other people’s approval of their somewhat controversial relationship (she was a lot older than him). Abraham said when you’re lined up, tuned in, tapped in, turned on with something you “just know” and nothing anyone else says matters; you do it anyway. Likely, when the couple got together that’s how they felt, they “just knew” and didn’t care what anyone else thought. But now by talking about the resistance, focusing on the resistance, they were bringing more resistance and just making it more difficult.

There are things about my health and wellness that I “just know.” I thrive when I eat mostly a whole food plant-based diet with very little oil, salt and sugar. I am at my best in the very early hours of the day. I feel good and sleep better when I move my body more. I am inspired by clean lines, order and tidyness … and a lot of these things really seem to annoy other people. I guess because they feel it’s all a little too extreme, maybe, I’m not sure, but they have expressed displeasure and disdain and tried to talk me out of things and impose things upon me. And sometimes I’ve been guilty of giving in to that pressure and just going along with their ways because it made my life easier.

What I’ve noticed in the past few months is that as I gravitate back to my “extremes”, this time I’m meeting hardly any resistance and I’m even getting more support. I think it’s because, like Abraham said, I “just know” so I’m going to do it regardless and therefore I’m not bringing any resistance into my space. And that’s pretty cool!

Holding steady at 14 checkmarks … I did eat more vegetables than anything else today, but I really feel like I need some fruit in there to take that point.

1. Drink water, matcha, green and hibiscus teas √
2. Eat more vegetables and fruits than anything else
3. Exercise √
4. Go outside √
5. Remember to stretch and squat √
6. Read or listen to a book √
7. Make your bed √
8. Enjoy the little things √
9. Be conscious and present √
10. Live in a tidy place √
11. Go outside √
12. Try new things and give yourself permission to fail √
13. Work with intention √
14. Laugh loudly and often √
15. Live with gratitude √