Suaimhneas: Living Goddess

“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.”

Robert Frost

It’s kind of like starting all over, without starting all over.

Today was all about the liquids and fluids. I had matcha, black dark roast coffee, King Cole tea, green mint tea, ginger and hibiscus teas mixed together, a chocolately mushroom oatmilk energizing latte with marine collagen, a relaxing ginger turmeric cinnamon oatmilk latte for bedtime, and water, water, water … is it any wonder I nearly pee my pants dozens of times in the run of a day?

I also ordered several more bottles of zero alcohol wines, mostly reds that I tried and enjoyed, mixed in with a couple of reds to try and one very expensive proxie. Yes, I know what a proxie is now. I’m sober and I feel good about it. Not that I have a drinking problem. I’m not an alcoholic. I have brandy and vodka in the house and only occasionally look to have a single drink of them. The same in the summers when I usually buy a case of beer. It lasts for months. But I love wine, especially when perfectly paired with food or while being sipped from elegant stemware or the perfect pottery goblet. I like my wine deep, strong, and lusciously red.

But I don’t like getting drunk. I don’t like hangovers. I don’t like losing control.

For many years I’ve occasionally tried non-alcoholic wines to try and find at least one bottle that I could tolerate. Mostly it’s been one drink and then down the sink with the rest of the bottle. Hideous stuff! Undrinkable! So it was a big gamble to order some bottles online and start taste testing. I expected I might pour almost $200 down the drain. But I’ve been pleasantly surprised. I found a few reds that were drinkable, two that were even enjoyable, and one that I truly adored and would drink on its own without food if I felt like having a glass. I had done my research beforehand and was very surprised that the one bottle I was most excited to try was the worst of the bunch and very nearly bordering on the undrinkable. There’s a half bottle of it left in the fridge which may yet be headed down the drain.

Discovering enjoyable whites, sparkling and rose is easier, mostly because I don’t love them nearly as much as red and they seem easier to replicate. The fullness of a malbec minus the alcohol is a very difficult feat.

Still, I’m excited by all the liquids I’ve injested and ordered today. I’m excited to have gone outside and visited with my parents and accomplished some tasks at work. I’m excited to be back to the blog again and looking at my list and making strides toward being a fully conscious intentional human being. Yes, I only get to tick off seven of the items today, less than half, but that’s something. A bit more than yesterday. Room for improvement tomorrrow.

1. Drink water, matcha, green and hibiscus teas √
2. Eat more vegetables and fruits than anything else
3. Exercise
4. Go outside √
5. Remember to stretch and squat √
6. Read or listen to a book
7. Make your bed
8. Enjoy the little things √
9. Be conscious and present √
10. Live in a tidy place
11. Go outside √
12. Try new things and give yourself permission to fail
13. Work with intention
14. Laugh loudly and often
15. Live with gratitude √